Teen Obesity, Shame and Depression

On the other hand ...

You don't want go too far in eliminating all rude experiences directed at the obese. Many people finally have had that "I've got to do something" moment after a rude remark. The more the environment starts to support fat people to the extent that they can go all day without stares, remarks, etc., the more they'll be able to just ignore their problems and think that they are not in trouble and not that abnormal.

Of course, most obese people know at some level that they are obese. They just don't know at the level that puts it at the front of their consciousness as the emergency that they should consider it to be. A "Hey fatso," can do that. Unfortunate, but true.

If depression among overweight kids is a problem, the rudeness and razzing should not be targeted. The kids' reaction to it should be. "Don't get depressed, but realize that you need to loose weight now."

Dave September 8, 2005 10:20 AM

If you believe being cruel to others is a sensible way of helping; you lack esteem and it shows. Your rude comments are spewed at strangers to build your feelings of worthlessness...most bullies words are... No matter what a persons size is or issues are positive reinforcement always get positive results.

Vou
A personal trainer for 8yrs

Dave,

Cruelty never helps anyone, it only makes things worse and can contribute to that vicious cycle. Teens who try to lose weight after a mean remark are not doing so out of an inner-directed desire for health or improved self-esteem but out of deep hurt and fear of others' opinions, emotional states which are not the basis for positive change and are ultimately self-defeating. Some teens become so fearful of their bodies that they become anorexic and bulimic, which have serious consequences for their health.

From your comment, it sounds like you're projecting your own fear of imperfection and vulnerability onto another group of of people and blaming the victim. Truly wise, happy, and healthy people are not enlightened by mean remarks or cruelty but by passion, love, and a hope for a better life.

I was fat as a teenager and I did get some hurtful comments and was put in some embarrassing situations. I do think that the comments made me feel like I didn't fit in and that I was not a normal teenager. I always knew in the back of my mind that I "should" lose weight, but I didn't until college, when I decided that my health was very important and that I needed to address it ASAP. I don't think making fun of fat teenagers is going to give them an "Aha!" moment, as most of them probably ALREADY know the obvious fact that they are overweight. The kids that want to lose weight need to be encouraged and educated on good nutrition and be encouraged by their peers, parents, and teachers to join sports, get fun hobbies, etc. Cruelty is never the answer.

i was a fat teenager who was "treated in a degrading manner" as the article says, due to my being overweight. Now i'm anorexic. Yeah, those rude comments sure were helpful. Overweight people KNOW they are overweight. You can't NOT know. Mirrors, clothing and other human beings will never let you forget.

I am one of those "fat teenagers" you're talking about. I'm 5'7" and I weigh 154 pounds. I am constantely reminded of my weight issue by my father. Believe me, constant criticism and degrading remarks, especially when it comes to your body, is not the way to motivate young girls. It makes me feel like my brain, my talents, my heart, and any other positive attributes i might posess don't matter simply because i'm overweight. I urge anyone who has a preconcieved notion that criticism equals motivation to PLEASE let go of that frame of mind. Dont ever make a young girl, or any girl, or boy for that matter, feel the way my dad makes me feel. To be inadequate in the eyes of the person whose counsil you hold above all others is a pain beyond pain.

Well said Teresa.

Your body is not you - it's just your body.

I don't doubt that constant mocking motivates certain people, but then you wind up with a fairly contemptible person who is who they are, because they feed off of the esteem and opinions of other people.

And that is going to manifest itself in all sorts of other self-destructive behavior, as a result of being unable to resist things like peer pressure.

Then, even a person who loses weight, will, down the road, fail to win the approval of peers in some other way (we all do). And then there's a good chance the stress of that could lead to...eating too much.

Ever see "Heathers?"

I'd rather a world of obsese individualists than a bunch of skinny sheep. Ideally I'd like a world of fit individualists. I'd like a world of fit individuals who arrive at fitness for the right reasons; because they take a stock in their life, and value their own lives so much that they want to live forever (Can you imagine being that happy? I'm not but I want to be and I am working to be.)

Instead we have self-loathing anorexics, depressed bulemics, and a whole lot of really unhappy fat people who are missing out on life entirely because of this one flaw.

I know how much it sucks to take abuse for your weight, though perhaps not what girls and women go through, which seems to me to be more mean spirited, and worse.

But I've grown to...I won't say I care less what others think but I know I should, and am trying to care less what others think...What motivated me to really make an effort was my own personal dissatisfaction with myself. All of the abuse I've ever taken wasn't enough to motivate me until I realized who I wanted to be, and how far short of that I was. And when I say who I want to be, I mean who I want to be, if I was alone by myself on a mountaintop, with no one else around to judge.

(This is where I'm at; I wonder how much of my own experience and conclusions would be true for others as well.)

Even programs which encourage teens to resist peer pressure do so for the wrong reasons. Most of these programs are targeted toward, "Don't do drugs out of peer pressure," or "Don't have dangerous sex because of peer pressure." In other words, "Don't fall victim to peer pressure because you might get hurt." (Notoriously absent from these classes is a naked declaration of how utterly knuckle-draggingly stupid your peers are - at least as stupid as you are, if not more, I have noticed).

These programs have been...to understate things dramatically...unsuccessful.

Kids (and adults, many of whom could use some re-education) should be given affirmative reasons to be individuals and to base their self esteem on their own goals and own standards. The ugly comments from others and the persistent ostracism wouldn't be so wounding if this was the case. In fact, such negative comments would belie the worthlessness of those making them.

(I'm gonna go off topic for a second - this worthlessness is why the trolls on this blog are not worth getting bent out of shape about. Decent (skinny) people who really find obesity distasteful are typically graceful enough to avoid disparaging comments, because they actually have character, and care about maintaining their honor in this regard. Trolls have some serious personal deficiencies they're projecting - which may not have anything to do with weight.)

I wish I knew all of this back when I was a kid. It's all so obvious to me now.

What we ought to have is a National Punch a Smartass in the Nose day. Imagine how things would change if overweight, unattractive, or otherwise socially unacceptable people just responded to insults by dispassionately but firmly punching the disparager in the face.

Just one, sharp, dispassionate (and deserved) bash to the nose.

The whole issue with the Heathers that roam the hallways is one of sanction. They are positively sanctioned - by their tribe or clique or gaggle or whatever you call it - to be disparagers, but unfortunately most overweight people do not deliver a greater negative sanction by beating the snot out of the disparager.

People weak enough to join tribes of Heathers are all about conflict avoidance. Physical pain trumps getting invited to another Heather's house for a purging session anytime.

Not that I would ever seriously advocate physical violence.

Not me.

Never.

Well okay sometimes.

Im fat and i hate myself

You know what you realize you have to do, when people are cruel to you because you are obese? You realize you have to lock yourself at home. That is what I did at least, and I wasn't even a vulnerable teenager when I was obese.

I doubled in size in one year when I was 24. By my 25th birthday, I was twice what I'd been. If I was out and had to eat even a salad or drink a diet soda out, I could hear people going "tsk tsk", rolling their eyes, and talking about me. If I had to go grocery shopping, people would look at my cart and say "do you really think you should be eating that?" - regardless of the food being my diet food or my thin, junk-eating husband's chips (I know, he won't change his eating). When I was anywhere, I'd hear things like "get out of the way fat cow". I took my diet food, so tiny I was eating in a dessert plate, to a dinner party at a relative's once and had to hear a skinny friend of hers who only ate 2 slices of tomato at the dinner say loudly "Wow, you eat all that on your diet? If I ate that much, I'd gain weight!", making everyone stare at me and my food.

This made me terrified of leaving the house. I worked out at home for 1 year, with poor results, because I was afraid to go to a gym at my size. I wouldn't go for a walk or any other type of incidental activity. Luckily I'm not a stress eater, because if I had been, going out in public would have made me binge everytime.

Long story short, I lost the weight, but I still have this huge phobia about eating in public. If I can't eat at home, I'll often skip the meal altogether even though I know it is bad. It took me a while to not be afraid of grocery shopping too.

I know all you rudeness advocates are now gonna say I'm the one with a problem, and that might be true, but think about it: I don't go around telling slutty-dressed women they are dressed slutty, telling guys with bad combovers or mullets I don't like their hair, etc. What gives these people the right to make comments to me?

I'm someone who would be defined as an "overweight" teenager.

When I go to school, I am discriminated and degraded by my peers. when I simpy walk past a group of people, I get comments. When I'm with my friends, strangers still pick on me. So far these comments have only succeeded in making me obsess about my weight. I get frustrated and unhappy. It doesn't motivate me to excercise.

Don't get me wrong though; at my school we have three 2 hour sessions (2 on one week, 1 on the other week). We do strenous activities such as fitness training (weight training, occasionally 15 minute runs around a track), and martial arts. I also continue my excercise at home.

I feel sorry for everyone who believe making fun of fat people will help. 9 times out of 10 it doesn't work.

hiya
im 15 and im overweight and i hate it so much all my friends are like so skinny and i stick out like a sore thumb, belive it or not i found this site because i was on google and typed in "obese teenagers and how to lose weight" this sounds really stupid but i only eat crappy stuff when i get depressed because i have a lot of family problems and to me fatty foods are like a drug and i keep thinking when i take the it will make me feel better but it makes me feel guilty an more ashamed of my body! and whenever we do pe i hate it because i feel that every one is waching me because im not a great runner and im normally at the end. I just wish i could loose my weight im only 15 i dont need all this extra fat i really wish i could loose all my weight for my school prom next year im gonna try it !! lol and to all you other people i think your all perfectly fine just some people express there opinions of you because they think their better but they are sadky mistaken those are the people who have nothing better to do so they judge others to try and make themselves feel above ya !

how much should a 12 year old girl who is 5 feet and 6 inches weigh

Hey everyone. I am currently working on a quality of life competition for my science research class. My topic for this is adolescent obesity. I am aware of the problems with obesity our country is facing today, and I have to say, it is really a shame that you guys feel that ridicule is going to make young kids strive to lose weight. My goal throughout all this research is to improve the food being served in the cafeteria, along with improving the physical education programs, as well as having a nutrtionist constantly present for any questions. Hopefully this will all eventually come to play, and will be of great help to many. My question is how do all of you young teenagers feel about yourself. What do you see when you look in the mirror?

I am 17 yrs old and I have days where im depressed but im kinda unhappy with my body but im kinda not. im only 15lbs overweight which doesnt seen hard to loose but it seriosly is..Is there any way to lose it and be healthy and keep it off?? Plz let me know so I can feel better!

Dear Samantha
I am a 18 year old girl who has had weight problems for the past ten years of my life.I know that weight can make you feel so unbelievably unhappy and depressed. I have personally gone from weighing 230 lbs to being anorexic at 97 lbs at a hight of 5'7. I want you to know YOU CAN LOSE THE WEIGHT healthily! and i promise you it will make all the difference in the world to your life! You are so young and this is supposed to be the best time in your life. All you need to do is to commit to a healthy diet plan ..DO NOT EVER THINK ABOUT DEPRIVING yourself, it only creates more problems in the future. I am extremely happy now at a healthy weight of 125 lbs and following a approach of healthy eating and a motto of 'all things are good in moderation'. Think of doing things that will be benificial for your body in the long run. I would suggest a diet plan like the South-Beach diet, which is not low-fat or low- carb..it is simply a healthy approach to eating; emphasizing the good fats and carbs that are good for you, and the best part is that you will never be left hungry! the first 2 weeks are a little rough though. Another healthy approach would be weight watchers, according to me, which will help you in the long run, as you become aware that you can eat all foods, but much more of the healthy ones! Anyways best of luck, and trust me 3-6 weeks is all it takes. I promise you it is a worthwile investment. Best of luck and always remember health comes first!

i'm not obese myself, medically. yet all i can see when i look in the mirror is the fattest, ugliest, chubbiest person ever. i cant face looking at myself in the shower anymore - i have 2 wear a swimsuit. im 5'3" and weigh currently 141 but hopefully by xmas will be 120. some people might say im anorexic - but im not underweight. i do occasionally make myself sick, but in todays society people just aren't accepted unless they have their ribcage showing. its depressing - but its true. i only hope that one day people will truly be accepted for who they are, and that this agony im going through - the way i feel when i look at food, finally disappears.

Dear fhfhfhf
It is difficult to ascribe healthly weights for children and teens, but using Body Mass Index is one approximate way. For someone aged 12, a BMI of 15-24.2 would be a healthy range. This equates to 95-150 lbs for someone of your height. BMI is just an approximate guide though and there are lots of other factors.

She didn’t know why she was there. She looked around the room and wondered why the rest of them were there.

The room was no bigger than a classroom. Walls painted grey, and the thin excuse for carpet was peeling up from the lino.

This was ‘together time’, except no one really talked to anyone else. Everybody had their own story. This wasn’t intended to be shared. The thing was, she didn’t know if she had a story or not. She couldn’t remember-was there something that was keeping her from remembering? Or was is just that she didn’t want to remember.

A very muffled bell rang, and the solemn crowd stood up unanimously and turned towards the door.

The room looked more alive with nobody in it.

Military footsteps sounded down the corridor. Left right, left right. Teenagers not knowing where they were heading, but their feet seemed to know the route off by heart.

She stopped at a door with the number 21 on it. The rest of them kept walking. The door opened up to a baron room that resembled a matchbox. Machines were buzzing, but she was well enough to walk to the big room on her own now.

A colourless liquid was floating in a little bag with tubes sticking out. She knew that if she refused to eat again, she’d have the needles in her. She ran her thin finger over the incision mark that formed a small bump on her hand.

She sat on the end of her bed, her bony knees hanging over the cold metal rails.
She didn’t like walking down the corridor from the big room. The cold lino floor chilled her feet through her socks, and she could feel the cold. She didn’t like it.

Her memories were limited, were shut out by an angry part of her. What she did remember though was vivid. The pain of the needle, the dagger entering her arm.

Shouting, questions, crying. She couldn’t remember. Was it her fault? Although the sound of her tears and gasps echoed around the walls of the corridor, to her there was only silence. And she was alone. Always alone.

Through the small window, even the sky was like a cage around her. The blackness, silence, storm was holding her in. Not letting go.

She could hear something. Crying. But it wasn’t her. Were there others like her? Long sorrowful gasps that plunged into her head, stabbed into her heart, and quickened her breathing.

Plastic coils. Sharp points digging. Humming. Slow breathing. She could sense the breath of someone watching her. So many memories came back to her when she slept, yet she did not know if they were real when she finally woke up.

Today was Saturday. Free time. But to her, this was just another day in hell. Hell would probably be more comforting than this.

The pain she carried around with her, the pain she knew so well now, followed her like a shadow. A silhouette not willing to part with her. It was getting too much.

The one memory, the only image she had left of him disappeared. She wanted to go to him.

The walls closed in on her as she took them one by one. Hurrying. Small pockets of pure white powder glided down her aching throat, adding to the salty taste of tears moistening her lips.

The nothing.

A year of built up sorrow was now going to be a lifelong happiness. Atleast she knew it existed.

I agree with dee my moms a doctor and tells me the same thing I am 130 and in the same state. I need a good diet that I can lose weight and still eat the usall stuff (carrots,steak,prime rib, sea food, toast and butter) so what kinda diet plan could i have any ideas ppl.

Please write back

I'm a 21-year old girl battling obesity for the past seven years and for everyone out there asking - THERE'S NO EASY WAY TO LOSE WEIGHT! Believe me, whether it's Atkins or South Beach or non-fat or whatever diet it may be, I've tried it, but at some point I've always hit a plateau and the weight always comes back. The only way to do it is to watch how much you eat and to find a really good exercise plan.

For me my entire self-esteem hinges on my weight. If I've lost even a single kilogram, my mood is great and when I've not lost any weight, especially after all the effort I put in, I sink into depression. I've reached the point where I dread weighing myself and I cringe when I look at the mirror. I know I'm reaching my lowest because no amount of compliments about my biggest strengths or any amount of moral support from my best friends can boost my morale or self-image. I walk around all day carrying so much guilt and pain and shame and so often it feels like nothing can reach me where I am. I really need help...

The truth is nobody out there can reach inside us and shake us up, unless we are willing to change ourselves first...but knowing that doesn't make it any easier to accept. It's hard to take that first step when you feel like the whole world is laughing at you. We need positivity and affirmation and so much moral support from those closest to us and I don't know how people can do it without any of them. It's agony, carrying around so much emotional baggage and you can't come out of it unscarred.

If anyone out there has ever felt this way and managed to fight it out please let me know how...

Jane, you're right...there is no easy way to escape from obesity. It takes work, but more than that, it takes a desire from within that you can look to when things get difficult. I decided to lose weight forever when I went to college and gained 30 lbs in 3 months. I was honest with myself and said "If I keep on gaining 10 lbs a month, I'll be absolutely huge really soon." It was definitely something that I wanted to avoid, especially since I was only 19 at the time. I told my friends that I wanted to get healthier and fit into my clothes again. They were very supportive and helped me out a lot. My parents were also helpful and supportive. Now I am no longer overweight and I like to help others get in shape as well.

One thing you can do along the way out of obesity is tell people your intentions and show them you are serious about getting healthy. Nothing is worse than having "well-meaning" people sabotage your weight loss efforts. I found that if I told people that I couldn't have donuts anymore, they stopped offering them to me and it was easier to resist them. And exercise was something I built in gradually until it became a second-nature habit. I found that I felt so good when I adopted a healthy lifestyle that I no longer cared about what the scale read...but it DID go down! :) You can do it!

I'm 15 and I guess you could say I'm "fat"... I've been over weight practically my entire life. I'm to a point now that I just need to feel beautiful. I know that any girl reading this can know how I feel... everyone has been there. I feel like I can't be myself around people because their judging me. I've sat down at the toilet dozens of times just trying to throw up. I get so frustrated because I can't make myself do it. And when I try not eating I get so agrivated I can't stand to be around people. I just wish I could wake up one morning and I be thin. It's like everything I accomplish, anything I do that is great, it doesn't matter because I'm still haunted by the fact that I'll never feel good about my appearance and as soon as the glory fades, I have to go home and look in the mirror. I used to pray as a little girl that God would just make me skinny, just for one day. I would cry myself to sleep night after night just wishing that I could have that confidence I saw in all of my friends. Okay, I'll stop venting... I just wish I could be "that girl" ya know?? The one in the magazine. The one who has it all together. Flawless.

Nicole...read the thread on here about Liz Hurley and how they have to airbrush HER. Not even magazine women are perfect or have it all together.

it's very hard to be a fat teenager, because everyone teaz you and give roud comments about your weight. when i was 11 years old i was 5'3'' and i had 150 lbs. then i started to do pilates every day and started watch my diet. now i am 13 years old. i'm 5'4'' and i have about 115 lbs. i never laugh to fat people because i know what it feels to be overweight and being laughed at.

hi i am a person 5foot 3inches and i am worried about obesity. I curently weigh about 115 (the doctor said i am very muscular) and i am worried about obesity. I eat a very unhealthy diet and have not exercised in a long time (6 months ago i could run a mile in 6 minutes and 50 seconds; now it takes me about 8 to 9 minutes. both my parents are obese and they keep saying that i am going to be fat when i am older. i wish i ate healthyer and ran everyday like i used to. Now i am very lazy and all i want to do is play video games.

i never make fun of fat people. my friends do but i never laugh. I found this website while looking for info about america being obese on google for a language arts project ( if i could change anything in the world i would change..... America to stop eating unhealthy and start to eat healthy.

Both obesity and depression among teenagers is a huge problem. This may be due to the sedentary lifestyles that today’s teenager lives. Teenagers are not engaged in enough physical activity to help burn off excess calories they consume. Now, weight loss is no easy task one should consult their health care professional before they attempt any diet o exercise regimen.

Refer to the follow website for more information http://www.overweightteen.com/

Weight loss has a simple formula, and it is simply burn more calories than you consume. One may choose to burn calories in many ways including but not limited to: walking, jogging, or playing a sport.

Refer to the following website for more information on why teens should exercise
http://kidshealth.org/teen/your_body/take_care/exercise_wise.html

Depression among teen is a definite problem, but we must equip ourselves to better handle depression among teens. Teenagers are very sensitive, and our focus should not be on weight or physical appearance.

Refer to the following website for more information on depression among teenagers
http://www.nmha.org/infoctr/factsheets/24.cfm

Spectra, thanks for ur insight. I've only recently given up on all diets. I prefer to think I'm eating healthy, and I base my meals on the amount of activity I have planned for that day. If I'm not doing any physical work, I stick to soups, vegetables and fruits. It seems to be helping, especially when I combine it with a good form of exercise.

What really bothers me is the self-loathing that I've let myself become a part of. I like myself; I'm intelligent enough to know that me liking me should be the only thing that counts. And I hate the fact that some people out there have the ability to undermine everything that I believe about myself.

I want to tell everyone who's ever prayed to be thin, or pictured situations where they're thin and make people suffer for their sins, or who have hated looking at themselves in mirrors, or loathed shopping because sales assistants throw disparaging remarks at your weight or just plain hated yourselves, that surround yourselves with the people who love you the most. They are the ones who will realise how important losing weight is to you. I only recently confided in my mom about how depressing my weight makes me feel and she was shocked by the amount of bitterness and pain I was carrying. To motivate me, she stopped making fatty and unhealthy foods for the rest of my family and all of us go on 3 to 4 km walks everyday.And though most of the time it has been a tremendous uphill battle, I'm hoping that someday I will have a 36-24(well, 28)-36 figure. I've a feeling those would be my ideal stats.

Nothing in life, not money, relationships, fame, peace, or even faith falls straight into your lap, and you have to work at it. It certainly applies to weight loss, so I'd just tell everyone what James Frey would say.....HOLD ON!! HOLD ON!!

i am 12 years and i weigh 185 and i am about to be 13 there is no way in the world i can get it off and so many pepole call me fat and say o know i fell the world shakeing and it makes me fell really bad and when that happens i want to die because i know i wont ever achive nothing if i dont lose this weight before i go to high school and i am in 7th grade. and i whould like to wear pretty cloths and look good but i just cant because i am fat thaks for reading jenna

i was 12 and i weigh 379 pounds i cant play with my friends...i really dont have any they just shove fatty food in my face and watch me get fatter and fatter when i was 14 and i weigh 500 i gaid over 200 poulnds in a year! an my FREINDS are still making me grow and grow i am now 16 and i cant fit in my car i puked once because it was squezeing me to hard i am ashamed of my weight and im only telling you the first 2 digts 67...o what the hell 9 679 i weigh 679 i want to grow fatt to at least 890-970 tips on how to gain weight.

jenny i say if you want to gain wait and be happy with who u are and jiggle a little bit

Ok i am 231 pounds..I did the math if I lose 10 pounds for 15 weeks in 4 months I will be at 85 pounds..it's hard though I mean the week before thanksgiving I had consumed less than 100 calories for that week and lost 15 pounds in 7 days! But my stomache got REALY sharp pains therfor i ate..and what does it hurt to not get a period?

katie hurley, what is that story you printed, thats so neat (as in well-written and i would love to read more of it. I am the only one who thought that was cool? (As in realistix gooduse of language etc., that girls situation is very sad)

c,est une bonne point il y a's les bone point dans tout ce attircal comme la depresion il y a la sense dans tout sa mais se em peut fait a une point du vroix- la point da une personne qui est Obese

i am huge....im 14 and i dont know how much i weigh because im to scared to get on the scales. i feel massive, im constantly picked on, and am always being picked on, its my fault, i dnot even try and loose weight, if people pick on me i just end up cryin and eating more....

my worst day has been when some boys pinned me down on the floor at school, lifted up my shirt and poked me, my fat was wobbling everywhere and they wudnt stop....everyone gathered round and began joining in, i ended up having bruises. people then told me that i was the fattest girl they had ever seen, including adults. whilst i was on the floor some boys in the year above came over and began shouting FATTTY FATTY, and then everyone started channting it, i tryed to suck in my rolls of fat, but i still looked huge....everyday when i go into school now i get laughed at, and pushed over.

i went to the shool dance, and as i was by the food stand, a boy came and picked up some chips and shoved them in my mouth....he said eat it you fat ****, you know you want to. he then carried on and ripped my top off.....i stood there in my bra while evreyone pointed and laughed, he slapped my belly and watched it wobble. he reapeted this over and over, then said are you sure you even have bones? beacause your so ****ing fat i cant see or feel any.

im so insecure and never leave my house, i sit on the computer and eat...recently ive gotten so big i cant fit into normal size clothes, i have to go to big ladies shops, for obese women....

is anyone elses problems as bad as mine?

hello people, well *sigh* whats to say im 17 about to be 18 in tree months...and well Im 5'6 weigh 180...sometimes the biggest girl in some of my classes..it's so frustating to see all my friends and all the other good looking girls there, it makes my eyes tearful...that i enjoy food more than i enjoy stupid girly problems. but there i go consuming my venom once more....3 years ago i was 20 pounds havier than now...i had barfed that weight out, on and off i had been doing that, now i just feel so alone, no one to see me for me but just another mindless body walking the face of this earth, boys dont like me because of physical way...i know this because ive been told that i have a great personality and that boys just like me mentally...im tahnkful to have a boyfriend but he lives on the other side of the country, i love him like crazy, i keep telling him once he sees me he wont like what he'll see
he keeps denying it. im sorry but i'm sick and tired of wanting to look just like everyone else and not even trying, sure i wanna be a robot, please atleast that way i fit in somewhere..idk, i just dont like the extra excess fat sorrounding me, yet i'm too depressed to stop eating. well thank you for reading this

~Laura~

Im 12 years old,my name is Shane Cloutier im 165 pounds.I hate this I wish I were dead becuase im allays made fun of.If there anyone out there that can help me please do it.